if only i could turn back time…
on saturdays…
… one contemplates
… one reminisces
… one BANGS HIS HEAD ON THE DOUBLE-DECK BAR!!!
i just cannot see any direction in my life now. it feels like i am in circular cage. i undergo this routine – wakeup, go to school, go back home, use the PC, sleep; with a few occasional chats with my very precious friends. probably i need to talk to a psychiatrist. i am going insane. on the other hand, maybe i need to talk to an IS major? my social life sucks. i got friends. a few. lol. girls? nah. i do have one in mind… and in my heart. haha. and she works in EASTWOOD!!! yey! chances to meet her has increased.
for a while i have been thinking. i WISH that i could turn back time. back to HS is fun. not that i resent meeting the people i have met till now. but it seems that i was really happy back in those days.
for a while now, i have been addicted to Japan. anything about it. but it seems that everytime i try to get near it, it gets farther away. I can’t have a minor in Japanese Studies. simply because the %&^(*@*&#! basic english of Ateneo has caused additional 6 units of damage into my life. and recently, i have been trying to obtain the o’ so holy passport. but my life saver DOST scholarship bans me. [my mother will try again soon, hopefully it would go through. i ain't going anywhere naman] it seems that Fate is continually blowing my head off with envy. ‘coz everytime i look at Multiply, a lucky… so damn lucky friend of mine goes to Japan. and lingers in the SACRED PLACE OF AKIHABARA — WITHOUT buying any otaku merchandise.
so, why did i write again? i ain’t writing or anything. i am just waiting for my downloads to finish. haha. but truly, my nakama Baldwin inspired my laziness. and really i just did not have any time during the summer. who could write while working 500 hours in 2 months?!
